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To bat777712:28 Mar 31 2009
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To Bat7777......you can keep saying bad things about the pirates coven hun, because you do know you're only making yourself look idiotic dear......lol!
Also referring to us that where a bunch of teenagers who cannot spell and dont speak proper english haha! now that made me laugh a tad bit ^_^.....hey i may be 19 but i can tell you im quite mature for my age and alot of other people would tell you this.....so please grow up and just stop with the crap. I love the pirates best coven i have been in so far.....so stop with the jealousy BAT didnt like it that i had a coven position! all because you dont like being told what to do and couldnt stick by the few tiny rules our CM set, you go around saying were trash! lol! Your a self-opinated stuck up person........the kinda person who hates being wrong!
I hope you read this i really do :) oh and thanks for blocking me hehe! very mature indeed haha! Oh and i know if you do read this you will writing another journal entry about us pirates....then please go ahead lol! il only be laughing!
Woop! right rant over......*goes back to her ship* :)
*cough*13:59 Mar 30 2009
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well im not feeling to good today....so im kinda skipping college *sighs* told my parents im sick...but that is a complete and utter lie just totally didnt wanna go to college, i dont know what is up with me lately :( its so unlike me to just think stuff this and not turn up to college, because i totally love the course im on.....its the best. I just didnt wanna see my best friend, because lately hes been off with me hes suppose to be my best friend and he doesnt seem to give a damn about me anymore :( hes always so self-centered and full of himself, god i have been there for him countless times...... *sighs* and also a certain someone else at college whos being the thorn in my bloody side at the moment.......grrr! i think im not going to go all week.......
My two fav quotes from The Crow......
18:15 Mar 29 2009
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'People once believed that when someone dies, a crow carries their soul to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes, the crow can bring that soul back to put the wrong things right.' - The Crow
'If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.' - The Crow
AzarielIV19:54 Mar 28 2009
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Protection stamp from AzarielIV...and a lovely rose he sent me too :)
ugh......18:42 Mar 28 2009
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ugh.....i woke up feeling like proper rubbish this morning, think i might be coming down with something perhaps :( or maybe its the really late nights i have been having, just been feeling so god damn drained recently *sighs*
Another protection stamp18:45 Mar 27 2009
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Protection stamp from Nocturnal Mistress :)
what!!!!!!!!!14:48 Mar 27 2009
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Well this guy has been asking me out recently....and i told him i wasnt ready to go out with someone yet so i told him just to give me some space to think etc.....thats all good and well.
I got a phone call from him the other day saying he is sick of waiting and he really wants to go out with me.....i told him we should meet up and id tell him if we would.....
Then last night he write a journal entry about me......
Here it is -
please dont hate me for saying this, and please read it all
the more i think of going out with you or anyone at all, the more i feel i dont want it
its not because i dont like you, i really really do, i just dont know why i feel like this
i want to stay single, not so i can sleep around, not so i can be with someone else, i just feel thats how it should be for now :-(
iv never felt this way before, maybe its my bipolar, maybe its my mind being completely fucked up, but i dont know
so, if you hate me, id understand. i really dont want to be messing you around, so im not going to ask you out again until im absolutely sure i want to be with someone.
i care about you alot, but i dont think it would be fair on you for us to be together and my heart not be in it
im really sorry :-(
Well there it is....i was like WTF! its like its been switched round now he doesnt want a relationship just yet O_o i dont understand him......why keep asking me out in the first place getting my hopes up perhaps and then writing this.....:(
He called me this morning too, we were talking and i was just asking like why write it in a journal why not ring me and tell me all this....but anyway he got pissy and he slammed the phone down :(
meh......im just not going to bother with guys at the mo lol!
stuff what is recent........20:18 Mar 25 2009
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hmm alot of things are going on at the mo college work, friends, ex boyfriends pissing me off. my parents fucking hell there getting on my nerves always on at me constantly saying ugh why you at college your never going to get a job working in films etc..... talk about having no faith in me at all.......they even pissed of becuase i said i might take a gap year before i go to uni :-(
ah i feel like my life has had so many god damn twists and turns so far! its like a constant fucking job just to keep myself for not giving up on it!
Im sick of being alone, the emptyness is driving me crazy, but then im scared to be with someone because of the fear of getting hurt of it ending up bad.....i dont want another dead end relationship i wanna settle have like someone who i can count on and who is going to support me and doesnt tell me lies and bullshit to make me feel better about myself......im sorry but no one likes liars and fucking cheaters!
Its just the fear of it all......
The only thing which is making me happy right now is one certain person who talks to me every single day and makes me laugh and smile so much.....i could have never have dreamed me and him would bond on so many different levels....i always thought meh....he just my college mate nothing special and me and him have argueing in the past.
It just feels great to have him saying such great things to me everyday :-)
hmm.....i shall write more later ^_^
New friend toooo18:41 Mar 25 2009
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well im going to start putting protection stamps in my journal now....i have way to many on my page. so heres to another new friend i made today....just out of her beautiful kind words she left on one of my journal entries :) so too LadySnowStrixx ^_^
A great coven master......12:39 Mar 25 2009
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I would like to thank my coven master Trepidation for sorting out all the stuff from last night....even tho i said leave it alone he still went and defended me! You dont know how much i appreciate it hun your one of my best friends on here i couldnt have asked for such a great person :) I was so close to deleting my profile last night and if you hadnt have come online and messaged me i would have just gone.....i just couldnt deal with the drama anymore it was becoming beyond ridiculous i have been on vr along time i didnt really want to leave because i have met great people on here and why should it be ruined by silly little childish games......yes me and someone (not saying names) we were both morons and acted immature about it, and it start turning into me actually getting bullied and trep knew i was upset about it all so thats why he had to step in and sort it all out.....but im just glad that you said you will just stop with all this and so will i, you have my word......so end of no more drama just keep the peace!
So thanks for sorting all the shit out Trep your a great guy :)
19:11 Mar 24 2009
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im seriously considering leaving now.......i have so many great friends here thats the only thing stopping me leaving......but the grief is now getting to much, i dont know how people can judge me when they dont know me.....im sick of having people give me shit in journal entries etc.....meh i fed up of this crap! pfft.....congrats youre getting what you wanted........
when theres an upside theres always a downside19:47 Mar 23 2009
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Well today went amazing we got so much footage we interview like 10 people! like wow we totally didnt expect to get that many people :) then we got footage of some of the rooms and outside etc......jeez....we were there like 5 hours :( it was so tiring. So i got home had my dinner, and i took a nap for 2 hours but god damn i really dont feel well at all :( i have like really bad stomach pains and i feel proper sick i thought it was because i was tired hence why i took a nap for a few hours but i woke up feeling the same :( maybe it is something i have eaten i dont know but ugh.....i feel horrible =[
Last night was great!!12:17 Mar 22 2009
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Last night i went to see my mates band play at the casbah!!! there called End of Eternity, i hope they make it big because last night they kicked ass so much! your a awsome guitarist Stuart!!! love ya muchies :)
wow.....so sweet :)16:00 Mar 21 2009
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The longer I live the more beautiful life becomes. If you foolishly ignore beauty you will soon find yourself without it, your life will become impoverished. But if you invest in beauty it will remain with you all the rest of your life. I am proud in taking the time to say you are beautiful.....
This was sent to me by my friend AzarielV.....thanks hun it made me smile its beautiful :)
18:26 Mar 20 2009
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ugh....think my brain is going to explode....im looking at film schools and universitys that i might want to go to next year when i finish the course im on.....but damn its so confusing. Theres a really good film school down in london i like, then theres lincoln uni, and of course sheffield uni which is in my city, but i really want to move out of sheffield so much, but im worried because i really dont think i will have the money to do it :( all this student loan stuff i totally dont get it at all.....even my parents are pretty clueless when it comes to things like this :(
My best friend has his heart set on Lincoln uni and i kinda feel like i should go with him....otherwise he would be on his own :( but meh....i really dont know yet i have sent of for some information to see what all these places sound like, plus there is a few open days coming up so i might go down and check them out :)
=]13:04 Mar 20 2009
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last night my friend george asked me out....i havent give him an answer yet im going to meet up with him at the weekend so we can talk about it :)
I do have doubts that im not ready for the whole going out with someone thing again, but suppose i know george aint a complete prick unlike the last fool who lead me on and thought it was all a game he was a complete TWAT!!!!....but george hes one of the sweetest guys i know =] he would never hurt me, plus he wants me to go travelling europe with him next year....ooo i get to ride on the back of his motorbike *grins* how hawt is that xD
O_o11:49 Mar 18 2009
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oh man.....i have such a hangover! lol! last night was bloody awsome xD
roll on tomorrow!22:51 Mar 16 2009
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woooo xD roll on tomorrow, im off out for one of my heavy drinking sessions with my two mates who i use to go out with all the time....i havent seen these guys in bloody ages :) oh yea and i havent been drunk in quite a while so i think im going to just go all at it.....and get completely WASTED xD
damn.....13:56 Mar 15 2009
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ah college work....i have like so much to do still....i keep getting assignments out of the way, then there bloody even more to do *sighs* i think im going to go insane.
Also i will be hopefully going to uni next year and i mentioned to my parents that i might take a gap year, because to be honest i could do with a break kinda sick of studying, and when i told them they totally flipped out.....i was like O_o meh.....i swear my parents wil never understand how much stress im under with all this college surely everyone needs a break sometimes.
A few of my mates are going to travel europe so this is what i was going to do in my gap year, but it might not happen at this rate because my parents are so god damn mardy :(
The magic roundabout
20:47 Mar 14 2009
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Ahhh yes, the magic roundabout. It was first aired in 1965 and from then on it's been on practically every channel in every country around the world.
Dreamed up by a crazy/drugged Frenchman, Serge Danot, the show was originally shown in French, rumour has it that the English language episodes were overdubbed with no regard or knowledge of what the original plot or dialogue was, this and the fact that Danot was stoned most of the time gave the episodes a surreal twist.
It's been common speculation between most people that the show had numerous sexual innuendos and drug references. Here's my take on the subject.
Mr Rusty
Mr Rusty is widley regarded as the cause of all the problems in the Magic Garden. He was the owner of the Magic Roundabout and probably a drug dealer buy less legal trade. Dougal told Mr Rusty at one point that his 'trip' on the roundabout was a 'wonderfull feeling'. Ahh, customer satisfaction.
Florence
Florence was often seen as many years befor her time. She had really big, eighties hair and, as all the episodes start with her talking to Mr Rusty, she is probably on all the drugs that were available from her dealer. In my opinion, she seems suspiciously attracted to Dougal.
Dougal
The sugar cube fixated dog of the garden. Clearly on cocaine and is therefore always anxious. Think about it, sugar cubes? He also eats the mushrooms of the garden. Dougal is always cynical, and has many daydreams and ideas.
Dylan
Dylan was the stoner rabbit of the group. Dylan can often been found spaced out and tired sitting under the tree playing his guitar.
Brian
Brian was a snail, and seems like the only clear thinker of the group.
Zebidee
Errrrm speed? Always hyperactive, and the guy has a spring for feet! Zebidee is supposed to be the magic of the garden, and can change into different things. Far out man!
Ermintrude
A pink cow... yes..... This shows that the frenchy mustve been on something good if he was seeing pink cows. Who writes a TV series with a pink cow in it?? She's always eating the flowers in the garden (magic mushrooms) and often encourages other garden members to try it. She can rotate her head through 360 degrees, which of course any normal cow can do....
Other trippy things happen in the garden too, one time the group spent an episode talking to floating pastry.
One cartoon springs to mind that has many the sexual innuendo, Captain Pugwash. With Master Bates, Seaman Staines and Roger the cabin boy. And what about Bill and Ben the flowerpot men? Jibbering bullshit and best friends with something called little weed.
So we don't have to blame our parents that we're pot smoking, festival going wasters, it's the fault of the BBC.
lazy xD18:45 Mar 14 2009
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I have had such a lazy day xD been watching movies and cartoons with my little sister all morning and this afternoon, oooo i also kicked her ass on this racing game haha! :) it was great to spend time with my little sister becuase normally im on my pc all day and tell her to go away all the time lol! or i usually go out with friends.....so today it made a change from all that which was great :)
god damn *laughs*19:00 Mar 13 2009
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well it looks like a certain someone is still telling people shit about me, i really thought it was past all that lol!......go ahead you really arnt effecting me, tell people what you like about me god damn.....if they really knew what you was like lmao! my real friends on here know the truth about you lol! try all you want to make me leave hun....i aint going know where *laughs* xD
haha!14:23 Mar 13 2009
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haha! hmm.....why do other peoples friends always have to try give you shit.....all because you have given someone they know shit lol! dont know why they just carnt keep there nose out! lol! ^_^
oh dear.....14:03 Mar 13 2009
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LadyKrystalynDarkstar
Ok i gave her an 8 because it took ages for her page to load in and i hate that.....so she has posted what i gave her on my page in my comments lol! and she will have probably given me a 1 back or something, but im not a prem member so thats a shame so i will never know!
What is it with people getting pissed of if you dont give them a 10......
WHAT!13:10 Mar 13 2009
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oh my....i just got a message of someone of here claiming to be my friends sister......and she said that my friend Dave is dead O_o and said i hope you and him wasnt to close.....surely this has got to be some kinda sick wind up because if it is.....it is bloody god damn wrong to say something like this.
Fuck!21:02 Mar 12 2009
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Ok Ok.....over the last few days i have a few regrets about a few things :-( maybe i am that stupid little fuking girl im sure thats what everyone thinks! fuck....i dont know what to do, something is telling me to right the things i have done wrong.....but why should i when not everything is always my fault.....im trying i really am.....but sometimes things have to be left alone, i cannot correct all the wrong i have done to people thats why i am having regrets *sighs* i hope people realise..... :-(
i think im going to explode! i have been fucking stupid *bangs head against wall*
11:20 Mar 12 2009
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hmm.....wonder what it would be like to have angel wings.....and just been able to fly away it would be amazing xD
bloody hell!!22:09 Mar 11 2009
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ah man i now offically hate vista! for some bloody reason it now wont recognise my ipod! it really is the pisstake!
tired.....15:59 Mar 11 2009
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Damn i always seem to be so tired all the time.....even when i have had like so much sleep! I swear some days i could just sleep all day O_o
What a day xD19:07 Mar 10 2009
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oh my.....today went pretty good.....luke actually showed up and didnt let our group down xD but we were still all nervous, we was there for like a hour we talked about our project and then she showed us round and everything :) she needs to ask the people who own the building now for them to give us permision to film in there :) i hope they give the go ahead, and also ask some people who live in the shelter if they would do some interviews for us, everything going so great so far.
Then all this afternoon we was walking round the town centre.....filming just about everything! we even filmed a real homesless guy too O_o that so going in the documentary xD we dropped so lucky when we saw him we was like oh my god HOMELESS GUY haha! we kinda sneakily filmed him tho he would have wanted money if we asked him haha!
but i am shattered.....lol! was filming for a good few hours.....getting shots of subways, mucky streets, a homesless man, we also like filmed on top of this right high carpark you know to get a great shot of sheffield, it looked amazing :) haha we nearly got busted tho when we was in the carpark the security guys came to see why the hell we was up there lol! i was like oh shit! but we told them what we was doing and they let us be so that was all good hehe!
so overall things are coming along so good for this documentary im so happy after today xD
To the pirates :)20:57 Mar 09 2009
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We started a great thread in our coven about why we love being part of the pirates so much........this is what i wrote :)
Well where do i start lol!
Ive known you along time trep and your such a awsome person and a great coven master :) Ever since i met you in the forums on here you have always listened to me and tried to help me as much as possible. I have been in many covens on this site but this is just the best! The last coven i was in i totally hated it......but trep got me out just as he promised when he reached sire and started the pirates :)
Also trep giving me a ACM position here in the pirates is just amazing at first i thought god i cannnt do this but i waas encouraged by other members and i really got into the ACM position and now i love it! I just love how the few members we have all get along so well and we know how to have fun :) I love the pirates so much were all like a little piratey family and its wonderful hehe!
So thankyou Jon for letting me be a great part of this wonderful coven :)
Random thought of the day12:22 Mar 08 2009
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i was talking to my ex boyfriend on msn and we have weird random convosations......and i had such a random thought......
I wondered what it would be like to be a tiny little purple caterpillar....that just wiggles around on a leaf all day xD
god damn.....i think to much haha!
Documentry updates......18:00 Mar 07 2009
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ok.....jeez..... the days are getting closer! we have a meeting with a woman on tuesday about her giving permission for us to film our documentry in the hostel she runs for homeless people....im like so nervous i mean i will have my college friends there to but still it going to be so hard to act all professional :-s i dont want her to look at us like a bunch of silly students because we are far from that.
For once in my life we are actually filming something serious what has meaning and it is going to be shown to people to raise awarness of young teenagers aged between 16-25 getting thrown out onto the streets and we want to make it as professional as possible.....i hope this woman will give us a chance, it will mean so much. *crosses fingers* please please! let her say we can film!
XD13:05 Mar 06 2009
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haha! well i didnt get to bed last night until about 4am......i only just got back up now im completely shattered *sighs* oh my.....last night was so weird :-s i totally did things i would never dream of doing......call me a silly girl haha! but why not suppose i only have one chance at life why waste it being a bore ^_^ some people who read this will know what i am referring to about what i got up to last night xD haha!
drunkness22:28 Mar 05 2009
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haha! oh my.....for the last 30 minutes i have been watching my college friend drunk on webcam....its pure entertainment il give him that much hehe!
Helping......14:33 Mar 04 2009
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Isnt it just awful when your the only one who can see a person drowning in there problems.....*sighs* I mean there only so much i can do to help, but sometimes i hate giving advice just incase its wrong :( but i always try i love listening to people and helping them, its in my nature.....sometimes im always to busy solving other peoples problems than my own. But that doesnt matter to me because my friends and my family are my world.....and i will do anything for them.......
woooo xD00:21 Mar 04 2009
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oooo i have a admirer......well even tho i kinda knew he really like me anyway hehe! but aww.....wow! he the god damn sweetest and hes 18 today!!! going to give him the biggest kiss ever ^_^
Happy birthday richard! :)
ugh......22:50 Mar 03 2009
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ugh.....me have the dentist tomorrow in the morning *sighs*
Proper film festival14:50 Mar 03 2009
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well im entering a proper film festival it is a german one its called Kurzundschon :) it was quite wicked to find out about our tutor explained to us the other day about what can be enterted into the festival hehe! There are so many catogorys you can enter. im going to enter the short film catogory me and my group are working on a new film idea at the moment. Oh and if you come first place you get to go to germany where the awards ceremony is being held and also if you come first place you win 1500 euros xD which is about 1300 pounds i think haha! i doubt we will win but why not give it a shot....were only entering a compitition which is up against all the world :-s but we have nothing to lose so why not hehe!
oh my........21:59 Mar 02 2009
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well referring to my last journal entry about how bad luck comes in threes......i just got my third bit of bad shit *sighs* my mum was admitting to hospital at 4am this morning :( so the day been so hectic and i have such a headache.....being stuck in a hospital drives you crazy was glad to get home about a hour ago....i hope my mum will be ok, they dont know exactly what is wrong yet, but it is kinda personal *sighs* :(
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